Happy 25th of November

Hey sir can you see me??
Yes of course you can't do that..

This is the second 25th of November since you left Jakarta last year
Nothing..
Yes nothing..
and I've been waiting for you almost two years, waiting for you text me, waiting for you call me, waiting for you to talk with me, waiting for you to meet me here..
but it was nothing..

Now you've everything, you've someone who will give you great hello in the morning, and a friend to share everything..
Yes you've found her sir..
You've found the best one..
and it wasn't me..

I'm happy really happy to see you happy sir, maybe it called as love..

Waiting for almost 6 years but you won't stop and see back to me..
and that's the conclusion..
Happy 20th mon, wish you'll get everything that you look for, and may Allah always bless you mon..

I Hate to Miss Someone

Yes I hate to Miss Someone...

One night I stand I remind of youOur hope and dreamTears in my eyesWhen you gone so fastWhen I realized you know I can be perfectI fall from you You make me like I cant't stand with youYou make me like I cant't live with youI can't hold your handSo please don't let me down
I try to be a strongerWhen I know everything overEverytime I feelEveryday I thinkI never see you once again
I know I can't be strongerEven I try to forget youOh no I missing youI need It's you
So please don't make me feel likeI keep you in my heart
I fall from youYou make me like I can't stand with youYou make me like I can't live with youI can't hold your handSo please don't let me down
I try to be a strongerWhen I know everything overEverytime I feelEveryday I thinkI never see you once again
I know I can't be strongerEven I try to forget youOh no I missing youI need It's youSo please don't make me feel like
I miss your smile I miss your faceI need you hear I need your hugs
In everynight in everydayLike you want me to be
I miss your voice I miss your laughI need your hear I need your hugIn everynight in everydayIs you
You know everything is youYou know everything is youYou know everything is youYou know everything ... You know everything ... Is you

One night I stand I remind of you

Our hope and dream tears in my eyes

When you gone so fast

When I realized you know I can’t be perfect

I fall form you

You make me like I can’t stand with you

You make me like I can’t life with you

I can’t hold your hand

So please don’t let me down

I try to be a stronger

When I know everything over

Every time I feel everyday I think

I never see you ones again

I know I can’t be a stronger

Even I try to forget you

Oh no I missing you

I need is you so please don’t make me feel like

I keep you in my heart

I miss you smile I miss you face

I need you here I need you hope

In every night in everyday

Like you want me to be

I miss you voice I miss you laugh

I need you here I need you hope

In every night in everyday

Its you

You know everything its you

cintaku segelap jalanku mencintaimu

mencintai, ya hal yang sangat wajar dalam sebuah kehidupan..
bukan cinta yang salah tapi waktu dan situasi yang membuatnya selalu salah..
salahkah aku mencintaimu, mencintaimu dengan caraku, dan aku sangat menikmatinya.... walau hanya dari sisi gelapku. .

be my wife amin

Damn why it's so hard to saySecret feelings locked awayHeaven knows I've always felt so muchFor you
I'm not that romanticEven worse I'm sarcastic sometimesAnd now it's time I tell you thisWhat's always been my only wish
Reff :Eventhough I'm no spiderman or supermanI'll be the one who guards youNight and day and trust meI don't need no spiderweb or laser eyesCause you're giving meThe strength to sayShare you life and be my wife
Damn why so hard for me to saySecret feelings locked awayHeaven knows I've always felt this muchFor youI'm not that romanticEven worse I'm sarcastic sometimesAnd now it's time I tell you thisWhat's always been my oneand only wish

For you sailormoon

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

IT IS REAL!!

Hidup..
kalo hidup cuma makann, hewan juga bisa hidup.
tapi manusia diciptakan dengan kesempurnaan akhlak yang dimaksudkan untuk beribadah kepada Allah SWT..

Hari ini lagi mood buat nulis pake bahasa negaraku sendiri haha..
Beberapa hari ini banyak keanehan dipikiran gue, gak cozy aja gitu perasaannya, dari mikirin hetiknya kuliah,   bapak yang selalu harus didengerin ceritanya, kemal yang gak berenti nakalnya, galau karena gak dibbm orang cirebon, sampe pada akhirnya malem selasa ibu gak bisa tidur dan terus nangis entah apa sebabnya, belom lagi kata kata yang ibu omongin horonya subhanallah banget, dari masalah kesehatan ibu, keakura gue dan yang lain sampe tengah malem jam 12 ibu ke kamar gue dan nangis ibu takut kalo gak ada umur huh :'(

I'm not ready at all GOD!!!!
Pada akhirnya gue gak tidur semaleman sampe jam 3 pagi nangis nungguin ibu tidur, bsk kuliah jam setengah delapan, how??
Pada Akhirnya hari ini semua terjawab, mungkin kemarin adalah sebuah isyarat tersirat yang Allah kasih.
Hari ini tanggal 16 Mei 2013 Mba Eti , Kakak sepupuku meninggal dunia...

Kehidupan dan kematian itu REAL adanya gayss, beda tipislah.
Hari ini gue dapet ilmu yang sangat bermanfaat, yang belum tentu orang lain bisa dapet, apalagi disekolah juga cuma teori aja kan.

Firstly gue meranncang kain kafan di atas tiker tadi pagi, sendiri loh!! asistennya ibu yg biasa mandiin orang meninggal
Secondly gue mandiin gue nyaksiin gue nyabunin semuanya
Thirdly gue mengkafankan ya allah gue berdua sama ibu itu doang , can you imagine that??
gue seneng gue bisa belajar ini hari ini, ini bekel yang bermanfaat buat nanti saat gue butuhin ini, terimakasih buat kesempatan yang udah Allah kasih hari ini.

HIDUP DAN MATI ADALAH SEBUAH KENYATAAN!!!!

WHEN I HAVE FALLEN IN WITH YOU!

WHEN I AM WRONG, WHEN I AM THINKING THAT I AM THE ONE, AND CLEARLY THAT YOU DON'T!!

Pada kenyataannya saat lo berasa deket ama orang, dan nyata nyatanya itu cuma perasaan lo sendiri aja haha
lucu kadang siapa yg mau disalahin juga, gak ada kan ya?
tapi apa pernah terlintas dalam benak lo kalo gue itu mau marah mau bete mau semuanya, tapi nyatanya engga.
harus apa sih org2 yg ngerasain hal yang sama kaya gue? harus bilang langsung ke orangnya kalo ini lebih dari segalanya, yasudahlah tetep percaya ALLAH akan ngirimin seseorang di waktu yang tepat nanti :)

Independent Woman YES I AM!!

When you feel really really tired of fucking things around you, feel bored nothing to do and etc, you'll think that life is too fucking.

Start from my feeling, I feel so free when I have knocked out from freaky relationship.
unconsciously I HAVE BEEN WASTING TIME TO DO THAT!!
And how stupid I'am...
Independent woman, yes I call my self like that, I'm free I'm single I can do anything that I wanna , WITHOUT a ban from other.
Almost a year I have been being like this, but almost everyday in my silent room, I thought that how pity I'm.
I don't have someone who always beside me, call me every day, text me all my day, talking to me everyday, walking together, laughing, make a joke and I MISSED THAT I'M BEING LOVED BY OTHER PEOPLE!! HEY I REALLY MISS IT GOD!!!!!!!

JUST SAY THAT LETS JOY YOUR LONELINESS <//3

My New Inspiration..

As usual as my activity from senior high school exactly..
doing my friends duties, but it is nice thing is it??
not all about money, sometimes I'm doing it just to help my friends, it will be different if they give me a feedback like money LOL

It was my third experiences and it is same. about heart disease :(
first my mother be through like that, then mister emzi who using aids on his body and he also through like my mother, the last is my friend's dad have passed away from he was in six elementary school because of that too.

shocked, sad, and it'll be terrible I think
wish allah always bless my mom and you too sir <3

Gue Anak Teknik UYE

Malaam bloger..
besok gue uas pengantar teknik industri, okeee fine..
baru berasa gue anak teknik men!!
pas baca soal dari kemaren gue ngotak ngatik google gaada jawabannya adalah saat gue nyari jawaban masalah production and planning control pada sistem input, proses, dan output dari PRODUK SEPED AMOTOR AUTOMATIC ATAU SKUTIK

nah nah nah kan gue tiba tiba matee
gue gak ngerti karena pertama gue adalah perempuan kedua gue gak pernah ngotak ngatik motor ketiga gue bukan tukang bengkel!

yapss semangat ya anak teknik <333333333

How Much I Love You Dad

dad..
no words can show my feeling now..
I really love you dad.

When you knocked my room and you come into my room..
sit down beside me and suddenly crying, no words can show my feeling dad..
when you said that I feel so flustered being like this, and he bow and then crying..
 I hug him tightly and said, dad you teach me to be strong woman, and you never let me fall and I'll also do it for you..

It just Allah gift to us, how we be grateful to Allah, and I'm sure everything will come back as soon as possible.

I Wanna be but I Will be!!

Today yes today I knew that my senior in senior high school is being a Princess of Indonesia from South Sulawesi..
wow what amazing thing right??
yes suddenly I feel very curious to know all about her..
she has a beautiful face and amazing body *.*

and ....
I tell my daddy that she is being a Princess of Indonesia, yaa my dad also curious to see her picture in my lepi.
I'm proud of her, and I'm proud to be her junior lol
I know that my daddy's dream is to see his daughter like her :(
last year at 2012 I get the chance to be like that, but it just Princess of Student in Jakarta..

 This is amazing experience that I've ever had!

Remaja Ceria Jakarta Barat 

maybe it is not a big event like princess of Indonesia but I'm proud of being part of them..

but I'm out of this because I should face the national examination :(

I'm sure that my daddy feel so so so disappointed to me, he doesn't want talk to me for a week :(

he have told it to all of his friend and he asked his friend to join to watch my GF at Session City Hall :(

The gf will be held on my 3rd day national examination, actually I want to join the show but I can't dad...

I'm so sorry dad, I can't be what you want..

but I promise that I'll be like that again.. yes it just for you dad, for my beloved daddy that I've ever had..

I LOVE YOU DAD :''''''(

I WON'T GIVE UP

When I look into your eyes
It’s like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well there’s so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you’ve come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

And when you’re needing your space
To do some navigating
I’ll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

‘Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We’ve got a lot to learn
God knows we’re worth it
No, I won’t give up

I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I’m here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and gifts
We got yeah we got a lot at stake
And in the end,
You’re still my friend at least we didn’t tend
For us to work we didn’t break, we didn’t burn
We had to learn, how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I got, and what I’m not
And who I am

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up
I’m still looking up

I won’t give up on us
God knows I’m tough, he knows
We got a lot to learn
God knows we’re worth it

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up…

 

curhat basi

Haloooo

syudah lama ngga ngepost lagi diblog, heem oiyaa happy new year and a lot of wish that I've this year.
Tahun Baru, Bulan Baru, Hari Baru juga..

Hari ini masih berkulat dengan lepi, ya berusaha jadi orang lebih kreatif aja, ngotak ngatik blog dkk.
due UAS banyak banget deadline yang mesti diselesein dari catetan kalkulus gue yang gak pernah bisa selesai dengan rapih akhrnyaaa setelah seharian selesai juga, tugas mister endi yang buat bingung juga, dan praktikum pa ary yang ku cinta juga gue lakuin ahaha lagi rajin yaa

oh gosh ternyata gue belom mandi seharian haha
sore ini ditinggal ibu ke kebumen, mbah sakit lagi :(
gatau sih kenapa jadi bete yapsss karena ga bisa tanpa ibu sehari aja rasanya setaun
mandi dulssssss yaw see yoouuuuuu :))))