For you sailormoon

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

IT IS REAL!!

Hidup..
kalo hidup cuma makann, hewan juga bisa hidup.
tapi manusia diciptakan dengan kesempurnaan akhlak yang dimaksudkan untuk beribadah kepada Allah SWT..

Hari ini lagi mood buat nulis pake bahasa negaraku sendiri haha..
Beberapa hari ini banyak keanehan dipikiran gue, gak cozy aja gitu perasaannya, dari mikirin hetiknya kuliah,   bapak yang selalu harus didengerin ceritanya, kemal yang gak berenti nakalnya, galau karena gak dibbm orang cirebon, sampe pada akhirnya malem selasa ibu gak bisa tidur dan terus nangis entah apa sebabnya, belom lagi kata kata yang ibu omongin horonya subhanallah banget, dari masalah kesehatan ibu, keakura gue dan yang lain sampe tengah malem jam 12 ibu ke kamar gue dan nangis ibu takut kalo gak ada umur huh :'(

I'm not ready at all GOD!!!!
Pada akhirnya gue gak tidur semaleman sampe jam 3 pagi nangis nungguin ibu tidur, bsk kuliah jam setengah delapan, how??
Pada Akhirnya hari ini semua terjawab, mungkin kemarin adalah sebuah isyarat tersirat yang Allah kasih.
Hari ini tanggal 16 Mei 2013 Mba Eti , Kakak sepupuku meninggal dunia...

Kehidupan dan kematian itu REAL adanya gayss, beda tipislah.
Hari ini gue dapet ilmu yang sangat bermanfaat, yang belum tentu orang lain bisa dapet, apalagi disekolah juga cuma teori aja kan.

Firstly gue meranncang kain kafan di atas tiker tadi pagi, sendiri loh!! asistennya ibu yg biasa mandiin orang meninggal
Secondly gue mandiin gue nyaksiin gue nyabunin semuanya
Thirdly gue mengkafankan ya allah gue berdua sama ibu itu doang , can you imagine that??
gue seneng gue bisa belajar ini hari ini, ini bekel yang bermanfaat buat nanti saat gue butuhin ini, terimakasih buat kesempatan yang udah Allah kasih hari ini.

HIDUP DAN MATI ADALAH SEBUAH KENYATAAN!!!!

WHEN I HAVE FALLEN IN WITH YOU!

WHEN I AM WRONG, WHEN I AM THINKING THAT I AM THE ONE, AND CLEARLY THAT YOU DON'T!!

Pada kenyataannya saat lo berasa deket ama orang, dan nyata nyatanya itu cuma perasaan lo sendiri aja haha
lucu kadang siapa yg mau disalahin juga, gak ada kan ya?
tapi apa pernah terlintas dalam benak lo kalo gue itu mau marah mau bete mau semuanya, tapi nyatanya engga.
harus apa sih org2 yg ngerasain hal yang sama kaya gue? harus bilang langsung ke orangnya kalo ini lebih dari segalanya, yasudahlah tetep percaya ALLAH akan ngirimin seseorang di waktu yang tepat nanti :)

Independent Woman YES I AM!!

When you feel really really tired of fucking things around you, feel bored nothing to do and etc, you'll think that life is too fucking.

Start from my feeling, I feel so free when I have knocked out from freaky relationship.
unconsciously I HAVE BEEN WASTING TIME TO DO THAT!!
And how stupid I'am...
Independent woman, yes I call my self like that, I'm free I'm single I can do anything that I wanna , WITHOUT a ban from other.
Almost a year I have been being like this, but almost everyday in my silent room, I thought that how pity I'm.
I don't have someone who always beside me, call me every day, text me all my day, talking to me everyday, walking together, laughing, make a joke and I MISSED THAT I'M BEING LOVED BY OTHER PEOPLE!! HEY I REALLY MISS IT GOD!!!!!!!

JUST SAY THAT LETS JOY YOUR LONELINESS <//3